Lavender Glass

Something I’m familiar with…..

i stand still
a hopeless entity
wandering
watching and walking
still not sure
hopeless
in my useless
ENDEAVOR
i scream inside these
little calm things

little seeming things
small and kosher
in THEIR ENDEAVOR
i didn’t ask
for this … or that
i didn’t ask
if anyone was listening

oooh i am SO angry
could just someone
please explain
why these things
these consequences
evade all perception
for me

i didn’t ask to be an angel
i didn’t ask to have these powers

these abilities

these things i wish i didn’t know
i would rather be dark
like ash said
i want something soft